I used to have a bad habit of shutting myself off from everyone. I would allow my depression to knock me down. I harbored every deep feeling and thought to myself. Through this unhealthy process I then was "rescued" by men who preyed on individuals like myself. Afterwards I learned that we are only as sick as our secrets and anger is depression turned inwards.
If you are struggling with depression I suggest you dial 211 in the U.S. and parts of CAN for help finding a therapist in your area. We cannot change something that we do not fully understand.